Milkman's Circle for Recovery - 10seged

10seged - Kelly

My Personal Hell

I am compelled to let my story spill out, just as my addiction had, without any regard for the comfortableness of the author.

It will also bear the truth, just as of the truth, "that my life had become unmanageable." Insanity managed (my life) ,, and I try to manage the insanity,, unsuccessfully of course.

I will be powerless to tell anything but the truth, because the truth empowers the addict. "I am powerless over my addiction,," was the other half of my 1st step to RECOVERY!

"Hi, my name is Kelly,,, and I'm an addict,,,," is one of the most sweetest verbal testaments, that each and everyone is a miracle, and truly blessed to be alive.

That is where my story begins. Idid not have a bad childhood, some traumatic things, but who didn't? But as I got older I found that I was very inclined to getting "high," or using, mind altering chemicals. Huffing, got me beat pretty bad when I was a youngster, grass came in around 13, which I really loved. I never thought it would go as far as it took me. Let me jump ahead towards the end. I hurt my back operating heavy machinery, in my mid 20's, and in my early 30's I went to the Dr. to get his take.

Thats when I got the green light for my addiction to completely take over. Taking pain killers by mouth, is how it progressed into the monster I have to cage today. Taking them by oral application grew to ineffective and I had already dabbled with I. V. meth use, so this was an easy jump for me. I was spiking dilaudid, K2-8's like they were candy, (and they were a sort of candy). M. S. Contin, Oxy-Contin, M. S. Hydrochloride, Fentynal 25-100 patches, and any other kind of opiats I could break-down in a spoon.

Needless to say what the end-result was.....

But i am still alive,, I am still of sound mind. By the grace of God I am slither,, I am truly blessed.

So please give yourself a break and listen to your new family share it's experiences, strengths, and hopes.

I am but one man, but together we make a fellowship,,,, and as we say, with that I will pass,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Your Friend in Sobriety

Kelly Mc

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